“I Wish No One Really Wish Me A Happy Birthday.”

I know my articles always be a turnup stood. It is either am being great or am being poor. But today, I realized, my life could have been better if I did did what I am supposed to do.

I don’t know anything about life. Nor am I planning to be a crazy asshole. But why? Why haven’t I become great?

There are so many opportunities in this life. Couples with some unbreakable talents. But here I am wasting everything away all because I couldn’t give it honest-to-god try. Why?

I have a destiny. A miracle to make my life count. And yet, I was so stupid chasing dreams, goals that I wouldn’t care about. What a useless life?

I wish you don’t wish me a happy birthday. I don’t think I deserve all this.

Because of me some people are suffering. Because of me so many people are living a useless life. And because of me those that could have been great didn’t become great. Then what the fuck am I doing with my life?

Am I not wasting the best beautiful time that I’ve been got? Am I not being a useless fellow?

To God who made me I really wanted to be great.

‘Yes! I really wanted to be a useful hero.’ (This is me crying because I realized I was living a useless life).

I know I wouldn’t have a second chance.

I know there’s no assurance of coming back here. Even if I did want to, I might not end up being here. So, why am I wasting my time?

I have the talent, but, I don’t know why I haven’t succeeded. Is it dedication? Maybe yes! But what exactly is it that I have to do that will make me succeed? What exactly is the purpose of me being here? Why am I being a useless fellow?

You might think that am getting nut. Well, maybe yes. Because there’s no point of me being here without making my life count.

I don’t know about you. But for me, my life must be something. I must amount to something great. I must look at myself in the mirror and say, “Yeah fuck you Lasisi for living a useless life.”

But there’s still a solution .. .. ..

There’s still a solution for me to be happy. There’s still enough time for me to change my life.

Many people will say yes to this thing. They will say yes because I haven’t been a good kid. But I tell you, I will never be something that you want me to be. I will never amount to that meaning of your wonderful life.

I have my dream. I have my own ambitions. And I have my own personal ways of life. Believe me, I am not here to make anyone happy. Instead, I am here to kick you in the ass. That, “Why are you also living a useless life?”

Fuck you for giving me a reason.

Fuck you for telling me your sisters caused it. And yes fuck you for saying, “You know, I could have make a good use of my time, but the challenges are not normal.”

Fuck you now and fuck you forever.

You have to be great.

You have to live a dangerous life. A life where you don’t care about what anyone says about you. As long as you’re becoming what exactly you’ve been dreaming to become.

I know you have a good cause. I believe you really wanted to amount to something great. Believe me, I have the trust in you.

So never give up. Never forget that thing you’ve been dreaming to get. Never settle because it seem you couldn’t live up to your standard. Be a good heroes. A badass. Someone living life on the edge.

And I believe, you will surely succeed.

(After crying I realized, I still have a second chance).

Have a wonderful day.

It’s still your guy, Lasisi.

(And yeah! You can watch my video down there. And of course, I think I look eye-catching. Looolllllzzzzzz).

Me Drinking Coffee. And thanks for this, Investor Y.K. I love you bro. And hey, hope you enjoy it? Gbagam!

Okay now, welcome to my journey so far. I hope you enjoyed it?

It’s okay! Never live a useless life.

Be wise and use your brain! !! !!!

Motivation Is Crap!

I have to dedicate this one to the big boss – David Goggins. The bad of the baddest. A retired Navy SEAL. Hell week master. Operation being the best among the baddest. I respect you man. #Salute – #Down.

Okay, not everyone will be a Navy SEAL.

And not all of us will become a soldier. But all of us can become whatever the hell we really wanted to become.

I don’t know what you want in your own life. But am certain of one thing – everyone want to be a better person. Or let say a better somebody. But the question is:

“Are you ready to do the ground work?”

Because sitting down there talking about it all day isn’t going to help anybody. We want you to take a bold step. And then take another step. Until no one is there reminding you again.

And here, let be honest.

It is not easy to become great.

Maybe your teacher is not telling you. Even after going through heaven disqualified devil college degrees, you’re still going to face shit. Because landing your dream job is another journey entirely.

And if you happen to read too much, maybe in the jungle of being a scholar, and your credentials is now over the top, then am welcoming you to a life of disappointment, where everyone think you’re too good to be true, and the company that is trying to employ you now start a board of directors meeting, in the sense of asking themselves if they should employ you or not, because your certificate is threatening their post, and threatening their post mean they gonna get a kick-out, because having you is like having a big boss, where they can’t decide on their own, because your certificate is too much.

Welcome to new York.. .. .. Oh sorry, I mean new life.

Although you didn’t offend anyone. But having what others don’t even know existed is enough a crime. Am serious.

Both your talent and skills are already a gathering for the devil. Where everyone think you’re challenging them. But you don’t know. You just think you’re doing your own thing without giving a fuck about anyone. Yeah! Not giving a shit. The best crime in the history of books and novels. Wake up!

Your destiny will challenge so many life.

Either you’re now ready or not is up to you.

Since the day you were born. You’ve been destined to fight. Forget about being a warrior. You’re a warrior already. Either you win this battle is all that left to you.

And listen attentively; God won’t help a fool, a coward and or a master of an easy craft. Someone who only believe in story. Fuck’em all.

We want a determined soul. A mind full of gravity. Pushing through the direction of his giving, his calling. That’s what we want. Not your typical go-to neighbor. A fool at his own chosen. Very useless dude.

Okay, enough of crap!

The only thing that is making your life seem unbearable is this:

You’re chasing the wrong goals.

You don’t know what you want. That’s all I could think of. Because looking back at my life, I realized, the best worsiest time of my life is when I realize am chasing something that doesn’t add values to me, something I don’t really care about, but just chasing it anyway. That’s my worsiest time.

But now I can see better, think clearly and analyze myself. “Why am I chasing this?” “What if I didn’t succeed?” “Is anyone going to question me?” “What if they ask me?” “Do I have anything to tell them?” Okay. “What if I didn’t talk?” Alright. “What about saying the truth?” “Do I really believe in my course?” Etc., Etc.

And believe me, the moment am capable enough to answer those questions without considering anyone in the process, I started feeling like king. Like am the owner of my own life. No family to report to. No friends to explain my want. No siblings to ask me. And most importantly. No parents to say, “Hey Lasisi, you gotta do it this way or else we’re going to disown you!” Believe me, it was a true freedom. Where you do things according to your own plan. Very interesting.

But there’s a problem though: you’re going to face your own shit, alone.

There’s no one to turn back to. All of them are all waiting for you to succeed or better still failed. Because your failure will make them say the harsh evil speech they’ve been preparing all day long, .. ..

“But we told you!”

Told. Me. What…??? Are you fucking nut???

That’s the reason am not giving up.

Am not giving anyone the chance to say that shit. It will become rusted in their own guts. Not able to spit it out. That’s my promise.

So forget about motivation. Ask yourself the main reason you’re achieving your goal. And let the reason motivate you.

By doing that. I promised, you won’t ever give up. No matter what the challenges.

Meet you @ the next post.

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What If I Choose To Be Crazy Again?

Back was the day when I used to suffer. But now – it seem – I have become lazy!

I was a warrior back then. Living everyday as if am going to die tomorrow. Not caring about what anyone says about me. But now? It seem- I am getting lazy.

My country is turning us to a fool. Where they were twisting our brains like a stupid robot. Killing us with unwanted dramas. And here we are … … Well – nothing we can do.

I don’t want to put myself in that drama. I am happy alone without any government. Let them continue using their tactics. And for the masses? Tah!!! They always get used to it. Shutting down filling station all day. Hardly seeling fuel at all. And if we manage to see one opening? People has already beating themselves over it. Fuck us all.

Their problem is not my problem. I have a bigger problem for myself.

How will I survived all this?

How am I going to tackle this problem? My country is turning the masses to their liking. What can I do to escape this rubbish? Looking everywhere is enough a panic. People deciding their faith on government. What stupid government was that? The one that is using our own decisions to tackle us?

This government understand better. They knew they can just make the masses decide on their own when they make them suffer. And who wouldn’t make the tough decisions when they’re suffering? But for me? I am chosing to make my own decisions .. .. maybe I should become crazy again? That might be the better option. But in which crazy?- I thought. Well .. .. ..

I won’t believe in the masses again.

Back was the day where I used to jog all around. Crazy maniac. Running all day with a broken leg. I just recovered from an ankle fracture and am still forcing myself to adapt to a crazy life ahead of me. And now it seem I have to go back to the same mentality.

Going back to your cookie jar. That is the best place to find yourself. You gotta tell yah, “I’ve done this before. And I gotta do it now!” David Goggins.

Things are getting worst. And to say the truth: someone need to become heavier. Heavier for the challenges not to be able to carry you away. And there’s no way I could become that without getting crazy. Being normal has not been solving any problems. And I don’t think it will do now. So the best option is to be – well. Crazy.

If suffering is the key then so be it.

After all running from it won’t make it reduce except to make it worse. So therefore, I am ready for it.

I don’t easily believe in people. Nor am I trusting anyone. People are not running my race. I am the only one running it. So listening to them is a waste of time. I can always decide on my own.

And now I have to face the truth: people are going to laugh about me. They’re going to say, “Well done. Everything has now town upside down for him.” And of course that’s the truth: things has changed.

But there’s one thing though: .. ..

I have come to the fundamental understanding – I am going to experience shit. Very big one. But I will always remember this: .. .. ..

The level of your preparation will determine the level of your performance.

And there’s no way you’re going to succeed without first facing your demon. And my demon is myself: am I ready to fight this war? Both for myself and the people I really care about? Am I ready to push through?

Am not talking about government. Government will not help me. I am talking about myself. What values do I hold to elevate myself? What are the things I can do to succeed? What are the sure but hard ways to conquer all this?

I might be a laughing stock – yes, that one is certain. But what if in the next ten years and no one has the courage to laugh at me again? What if in the next ten years things has changed and people are now seeing me in a different light?

And no, am not talking about five years – because five years is too small. Building a website writing shit you don’t even know people gonna read is a sure way to remain poor. But what if something just click right? What if you try all the way from now till that ten years and something just suddenly pump-up from no where and turn your stories all around? Yeah! That’s my believe. A believe no one could ever change. And if at last nothing happened? Then am okay. At least I gave it all the best in me, it just that I didn’t manage to succeed.

And believe me: I don’t really care about failure. People have been mocking me all the days of my life. I was a rebel since the beginning of my day. And the only way to survive all this trauma is for me to become great. So that I could change my story.

God has giving me the talent.

How am going to make good use of it is my problem. This destiny must be fulfilled.

What are the purpose of my existence? Am I just going to waste this talent? No way! I need to make a good use of it.

If God gave you any gift, don’t expect Him to do it for you. You’re going to face the reality head-on. You’re going to face your fear.

Starting the race is not even the big deal – everyone could do that. But finishing it is the main point. Are you going to push all the way to the end or you’re going to give up just right there?

Forget about genetic. And also- forget about getting lucky.

That is what I always tell myself. Yes! Some people will get lucky. And some people will have the favor of their genetics. But not everyone will have that. Some of us are destined to work our ass off. No more and no less.

So if you’re among the crazy legend. You’re among those who have their destiny intact. You need to understand that; you might not easily succeed. Hence, you’re going to work your ass off. Boiling and toiling all day. And yet, not actually sure if you could make it.

That is another harsh reality of life.

Not everyone will succeed.

And those who do should have the understanding to thank their God. They should appreciate His living presence. Because some people are only destine to work in vain.

All my prayer is that – both me and you will never be among the said people. The people that will work in vain. Because am certain .. .. .. Our place is at the top.

But the truth is .. .. ..

We have to work our ass off.

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I Wasted ‘So’ Many Times Of My Life.

Instead of me taking both of my time and resources very seriously, I was wasting my life chasing goals that I didn’t really cared about.

Instead of me seeing the realities amongst the girls that I dated, I choose to see what I really wanted to see. That I really loved them. I really cared about them. Hell, I even convince myself that a man will leave everything behind and take proper care of his woman without asking myself where the hell this thought even came from.

I was just a total loser. I follow every woman who show any interest in me (even if her only goal is to use me and squeeze anything squeezable out of me) without asking myself “What do I really want from women?” What a stupid fucking moron I was?

I didn’t pay much attention to myself, my life and my overall well-being. And there I am, paying both my time and resources on girls that doesn’t really care about me. Girls that (really) knows what they want, what they’re looking for, and what they really wanted to get. I mean girls that are really wiser than me. (I really really regretted it all).

I thought being true to myself mean others being true to me. No! Absolutely no! I really didn’t understand better. People want you to believe what they really want you to believe not what you really wanted to believe. They want you to see what they really want to see not what you really wanted to see. And worst of it all, you also wanted to see what you really want to see instead of seeing the realities as it is. What a fuckup world?

We all fucked up – big times. We all do crazy shit. We all look ourselves in the mirror and say “Yeah man, I gonna be great, I gonna walk up to my dream girl, build myself up and finally become the president of my state.” And after five years of being great then you realized; “You haven’t become shit.” You’re still there fucking and dreaming around.

We need to wake up man! We need to look ourselves in that mirror and tell the truth we didn’t wanted to hear. You’re not great you know. You’re not doing shit. You’re not even making any use of your time. Believe me, you’re just dreaming around. Dreaming dreaming dreaming without taking actions.

Stop the stupid shit. Stop making stupid decisions. Stop paying attention to what really doesn’t need your care. Be wise man!

I know you don’t really want to believe shit. I know you still love the feelings of being great without actually being great. You love every possibilities around meeting new women but without necessarily ready to do the ground work? No! You just can’t be great. You just can’t be feeling it and thinks it’s easily going to happen. And believe me, women will continue to dump you if you can’t really find your way out.

News flash: Women doesn’t really care about you. They don’t give a shit who you be. If you’re not adding values they’re not showing interest. If you’re not living great they’re not tagging along. And if you’re not providing they’re not thinking marriage. That’s the realities we all have to deal with. So be wise and live your life without giving too much thought about women, and be prepared to shut the fuck up and walk away when any girl started planning shit before you. Because at the end of the day, women easily walk away without caring much about your feelings, and make up some stupid bunch of standard excuses of not able to continue being with you. Use your brain! What? I said “Use your fucking brain.”

Instead of chasing girls that doesn’t really care about you? Chase your dreams. Instead of caring about women who will later dump you without saying or pointing what you did wrong? Take care of your life. Instead of believing what you really wanted to believe? Face the realities. Make your life count and see how many women come back hunting for you.

Yeah, you heard that right?

Women will come back fighting for you instead of you killing yourself up for them now. (Although many will still hate you no matter what you are. But at least, you won’t be wasting your life away).

And for that being said for now . . .

Have gat to fuck off and go live my wonderful dreams. Because, nothing ever comes out from being talking but not doing.

You know . . . ? ? ?

Have a wonderful day.

It’s still your guy,

Lasisi.

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I WON’T EVER GIVE UP; I PROMISED!

It is getting to a point where even motivation is not helping me. I feel (feeling) stuck. And am accurately overwhelmed.

No. It’s not that am not living my life. It’s just that I am hitting a rock bottom where I have to stop fighting and just accept the fate (even though I was the one that cause all this in the first place) and move on with my life one step at a time.

Yes, I cause it because I stupidly make some decisions that are killing me now. (I thought I was being smart but I was a total fool).

“Instead of allowing God to lead your life and surrendering all your stupid shit to Him you chose to do it at your own time. Then don’t be surprised when your decisions is coming back to hunt you down. But anyway, I was convinced that God will still help you out.”

Lasisi Isaiah Oluwadamilare.

We all fucked up. And sometimes we don’t even know why.

Just because you’re now making money doesn’t mean you won’t make a stupid decision that will reck you down. Believe me, we all did. It is only when the shit hit the fans we started asking why. Why did I even did that? Why did I bought that shit? No, I could have waited another month before accumulating all that. Why am I being so foolish?

Like seriously, we all fuck the fucked up. And if we didn’t, then how could we learn? The fact that you make that stupid decision will be a stepping stones to your success. How?

Because when the future(s) come, and you wanted to make another yet stupid decision (but the one that might worth it), your brain will kick-in and remind you of the last time you did what. And you’d be amazed to see yourself finding a better way to do that.

So instead of just crazingly achieving goals, you’ll find yourself asking (more) why of pursuing any goals of yours. It’s a no brainer. You’ll be critically amazed.

You wouldn’t care about who do what, you’d only care about maintaining all your shit without blindly following a gut instinct that doesn’t know better (and maybe am wrong anyway, because my gut instinct told me not to do it ‘at the background’ but I refused). But anyway, I still give thanks to that stupid gut of mine, because without it, this article wouldn’t have a place to exist. It will remain on the rem of the spirit. So thank you my gut.

Correct! Even though that dumb instinct sometimes make you do some stupid shit. But anyway (we thank you o our dearest instinct).

So Mr. and or Mrs. Instinct, I Lasisi Isaiah Oluwadamilare, is using this medium to thanks and appreciate all your good did in my life, the time you fuck me up (big times) and those times you deeply help me out (the ultimate times) I really appreciate it all. Thanks. May my Almighty God continue strengthening you, so that you can continue to serve me (more and more) better.

Thank you God for answering my prayer.

For in Jesus name I pray, A-men!

And for you to know this; even though I was full of shit that I cause with my own hands, that are still fucking my life right now, am still promising you one thing. And that thing is THIS:

I won’t ever ever give up. That’s the promise have made to my future self.

Yes I promised,

I’ll rather die trying than accepting this stupid fate of mine even though I was the one that cause all this. But anyway, I will surely push on (to the top).

Thanks for reading this.

Just don’t fuck your own life the way I did.

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